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« Reply #240 on: October 27, 2018, 06:13:15 PM »
Did a 17 hour fast and drank the rest of the tea and have a timer going as I did last time. At 3 hours with a full fast versus eating lightly beforehand and the difference is still tremendous. The cactus is fucking engulfing me right now amd I think I'm having my first oh shit moment.
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« Reply #241 on: October 27, 2018, 06:18:05 PM »
I dont know how people can go their lives without experiencing this. It does feel like youre knocking at the doors of perception, come what may.
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« Reply #242 on: October 27, 2018, 06:56:14 PM »
What kind of cactus is this?

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« Reply #243 on: October 27, 2018, 07:11:41 PM »
I dont know how people can go their lives without experiencing this. It does feel like youre knocking at the doors of perception, come what may.


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« Reply #244 on: October 27, 2018, 07:24:46 PM »
What kind of cactus is this?

Its bridgesii ticherious achuma. Its considered the most potent cactus you can get legally.

So the sense of impending doom has passed and now I am awash with a sense of euphoria. What makes mescaline God Emperor of psychadelics is how fucking warm and intense it is. It doesnt want to peel your eyes open but gently takes your chin points it towards whats beautiful and asks you to consider it. And what was once banal is now awash in fire (emotionally). I'm fucking getting misty even typing this lmao. No loss of control which I adore. Gave my soul to booze for four years and all it gave me were demons.

I dont know how people can go their lives without experiencing this. It does feel like youre knocking at the doors of perception, come what may.



Legit I want to go further. Next time I downing 100g worth of this. Half of it is a stunner
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« Reply #245 on: October 27, 2018, 11:12:47 PM »
Watching Tree of Life feeling like

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« Reply #246 on: October 28, 2018, 03:36:28 PM »

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« Reply #247 on: October 28, 2018, 07:05:28 PM »
My jaw hurts, how is yours feeling Attra?

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« Reply #248 on: October 28, 2018, 09:11:51 PM »
I chewed a lot of gum so I wouldn't be clenching my jaw.

So not too bad.

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« Reply #249 on: October 29, 2018, 08:37:18 AM »
It's kinda odd how that "warm fuzzy" feeling only came about when I was touching and hugging on other people. By myself I felt somewhat normal.

But the confidence, man. I loved how confident I felt.

That alone made it worth my while and I feel like I can tap back into that state with much more ease post-Molly.


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« Reply #250 on: October 29, 2018, 11:12:58 AM »

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« Reply #251 on: November 03, 2018, 04:51:57 PM »
Bought some gel capsules for my 4acoDMT. Shit tastes foul when you try to down it with water. After my weight loss I'm curious as to what a 30mg dose will feel like.
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« Reply #252 on: November 03, 2018, 06:07:45 PM »
Stoned to the bone after 35 mins with a full day of fasting fuck
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« Reply #253 on: November 03, 2018, 08:25:22 PM »
30mg is the perfect social dose at this bodyweight. And a friend told me shed be the designated driver and take me to the movies while tripping. Told her I WANT to see Suspiria like this. And now I know the perfect dose.
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« Reply #254 on: November 03, 2018, 10:55:54 PM »
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« Reply #255 on: November 10, 2018, 05:24:33 PM »
40mg down. The palm of my hands are fucking sweating. What the fuck. This is new.
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« Reply #256 on: November 10, 2018, 06:19:41 PM »
40mg down. The palm of my hands are fucking sweating. What the fuck. This is new.

Keep posting. We're here for u <3

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« Reply #257 on: November 10, 2018, 06:29:40 PM »
Thanks, Tasty! Still isnt overwhelming a dose but it's getting there. Next weekend I'll see where 50mg takes me
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« Reply #258 on: November 10, 2018, 09:35:44 PM »
Just dosed 20mg on top of my 40mg from earlier. Peace out bitches. Te amo.
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« Reply #259 on: November 10, 2018, 09:50:57 PM »
Good luck!

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« Reply #261 on: November 11, 2018, 06:58:12 PM »
So yesterdays redose was a bust. The quirky thing about tryptamines is you develop a tolerance over the course of the trip. I should have took a bump 2 hours into the trip instead of 6 hours. So dissapointing. Like loading a bullet into your revolver, expecting the sweet reelease only to get that comical BANG! gag.

And Toku, I was jamming to Chris Isaak the rest of the trip. He knows my pain :six:
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« Reply #262 on: November 11, 2018, 08:50:56 PM »
Ok, at this level something strange is happening. I'm  recalling dreams I had when I was a kid, they're coming in waves and they feel like theyre hitting in sequential order. Wow.
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« Reply #263 on: November 11, 2018, 09:43:19 PM »
mind: unlocked
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« Reply #264 on: November 12, 2018, 12:49:12 AM »
how well do benzos actualy work for curbing an acid trip? been kinda considering doing lsd but i haven't done psychedelics for the better part of a decade and i'm a little wary of the time investment. does xanax actually work for bailing out of trips? i didn't actually have access to benzos when i was doing shrooms every other week so knowing i'd now have an 'in case of emergency open bottle' out if i wanted to expedite a comedown would prolly be comforting

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« Reply #265 on: November 12, 2018, 01:31:40 AM »
I値l tell you this.. if you want to curb a bad experience with psychedelics, drink some beers. It will mellow you out and make it way easier to deal with it and eventually sleep. I致e seen people take klonopin to cope with bad trips but it usually resulted in them being knocked out for several hours

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« Reply #266 on: November 13, 2018, 08:09:44 PM »
So I put in an order for 250g of dried cactus. I typically work with 100g and split it into two 50g doses. Next time I dose I will go after 100g. Which, even at a possible 1% mesc content would equal 1g of mescaline (a moderate dose would be considered 300mg, heavy 800mg+). Havent experienced ego death yet. Maybe I'm ready to go for broke.
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« Reply #267 on: November 14, 2018, 01:08:52 AM »

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« Reply #268 on: November 14, 2018, 11:36:32 AM »
bless up tasty i know you're going through a lot rn but it's gonna get better. This is all probably exactly what you need to start your own business and clear room for those hobbies that enrich your life. You've always been on fire and smart, none of that has change. This is only a speedbump.

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« Reply #269 on: November 14, 2018, 07:29:56 PM »
Thank you. :heartbeat

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« Reply #270 on: November 14, 2018, 08:32:22 PM »
Haven't smoked for a loooong time, but was with friends... So I ate way too many edibles the other day and then went and watched a counter strike event with them. What an experience to be among around 16000 neckbeards and dabbing kids, while stoned out of your mind. I honestly don't remember ever being that stoned from weed... I could barely speak when ordering stuff to drink at the bar. Was quite fun though.

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« Reply #271 on: November 16, 2018, 09:35:29 PM »
Music on 4ACO is so damn good. I swear to all that is Holy. Ita like everything is turned up to 11 and theres no real fog. Its like staring into a prism.
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« Reply #272 on: November 16, 2018, 11:48:09 PM »
Its true fucking nature
Right fucking NOW
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« Reply #273 on: November 17, 2018, 12:12:36 AM »
You're supposed to suffer for your art
I've been bleeding for years
And years
And years
Take it from me
All of it
I exist
That is all
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« Reply #274 on: November 17, 2018, 01:38:34 AM »
A singular voice calls out to me
In this
Silence
It is terrible
It terrifies me
It takes all I have not to
Scream
Help me
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« Reply #275 on: November 17, 2018, 01:47:39 AM »
I'll speak in tongues for
You
Until my lips turn the bluest of
Blues
All in an effort to get this pain
Out
This ritual
Burns
But fire
Renews
Back and
Forth
And
Back
In my
Mind
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« Reply #276 on: November 17, 2018, 02:22:22 AM »
My terror has a name
And it smirks at me
Until its all I see
Until its all I am
I don't want it
I dont want
It
Porque?
Always that smirk
She hates me
And there's nothing I can do to
Fix it
My terror has a name
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« Reply #277 on: November 17, 2018, 02:38:17 AM »
I watched you as you slept
A late day nap
The setting sunlight made you glow
The look of peace on your face brought me to tears
At that very moment I found out what it meant to truly love a person
To do anything for them
To see her cry tears of sadness I'd move heaven and earth to make it stop
Shes still glowing
On that bed
In my mind
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« Reply #278 on: November 17, 2018, 02:47:53 AM »
Okay, how can I get in on this? I need to order a cactus on eBay?

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« Reply #279 on: November 17, 2018, 02:52:26 AM »
Lmao!

This is the 4acodmt synthetic.

I took a stupid fucking dose at 78mg then redosed 25mg four hours in. I fucking lost my marbles. I heard a voice calling my name and I'm fucking tearing up thinking about. It was hateful. I could tell it wanted me to see things I didnt want to see. It took all my fucking willpower to turn away from it.

I feel like I pierced the veil. Absolutely pierced it. And it wanted to eat me.

As far as visual the graphics on my TV melted and they came at me.  I wanted it to stop so badly. The feeling of dread was so overwhelming I wanted to scream for help.
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« Reply #280 on: November 17, 2018, 02:59:16 AM »
I kid you not i was muttering to myself in tongues at one point caught in some sort of rapture
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« Reply #281 on: November 17, 2018, 03:11:54 AM »
What's got me spooked is the sense of deja vu. I've done this before, many many times. But everytime I've gone through it I've pulled a new experience away.

Honestly this feels like a pivotal moment in my life. Some sort of techtonic shift emotionally. I am liberated.
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« Reply #282 on: November 17, 2018, 03:24:43 AM »
Fuck me.  I browned out for a bit during. And now some of it is coming back. There was one point where, in an effort to drown out the singular voice calling out to me, I tried turning on my fan for some much needed white noise. It didnt turn on. Fuck. I needed to stop hearing this voice NOW. I got up and plugged it in. But in doing so I got this sense like I was in some sort of twilight space. In between reality and whatever else is out there. Felt like reality itself was watching me. Considering me. What is this gnat that stepped into our realm. Lets see what it does.
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« Reply #283 on: November 17, 2018, 05:47:58 AM »
when we break from linear time weird things happen

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« Reply #284 on: November 17, 2018, 09:34:39 AM »
Fuck me.  I browned out for a bit during. And now some of it is coming back. There was one point where, in an effort to drown out the singular voice calling out to me, I tried turning on my fan for some much needed white noise. It didnt turn on. Fuck. I needed to stop hearing this voice NOW. I got up and plugged it in. But in doing so I got this sense like I was in some sort of twilight space. In between reality and whatever else is out there. Felt like reality itself was watching me. Considering me. What is this gnat that stepped into our realm. Lets see what it does.

Simulation theory breh... we're all being watched all the time. For who knows what reasons. :thinking

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« Reply #285 on: November 17, 2018, 09:56:16 AM »
when we break from linear time weird things happen

Exactly. And I couldnt comprehend a lick of it. I only had my emotions to guide me since logic went out the window there.

Fuck me.  I browned out for a bit during. And now some of it is coming back. There was one point where, in an effort to drown out the singular voice calling out to me, I tried turning on my fan for some much needed white noise. It didnt turn on. Fuck. I needed to stop hearing this voice NOW. I got up and plugged it in. But in doing so I got this sense like I was in some sort of twilight space. In between reality and whatever else is out there. Felt like reality itself was watching me. Considering me. What is this gnat that stepped into our realm. Lets see what it does.

Simulation theory breh... we're all being watched all the time. For who knows what reasons. :thinking

Yes. And the that thought unsettles me, deeply.

And this twilight place, if I were to reference a show in which the vibe was similar, it would have to be the upside down in Stranger Things. Not as visually dramatic but my room was my room but the light was wrong.

After I got the fan going I had this incredible urge to go outside in just my boxers and wait for... something. I was needed outside. But a fragment of me was still grasping to reality, fortunately.

Another strange thing. I extended my arm out at one point in the darkness. My arm was shadow, twisting, flashing, morphing. It was like the hyperspace scene in 2001:A Space Odyssey. But instead of bright lights flashing by me it was a negative light. Dark matter. My arms shadow had a shadow which had a shadow and so on. Moving back and forth quickly. It was beautiful in some obscene way.
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« Reply #286 on: November 17, 2018, 11:56:49 AM »
the only thing watching yourself is you, always

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« Reply #287 on: November 17, 2018, 12:12:38 PM »
I was watching this (dat intro)



but I saw it was recommending this so I watched it and



I forgot she痴 the queen for a reason
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« Reply #288 on: November 17, 2018, 07:22:16 PM »
an interesting article on psilocybn and how ones personality can effect the experience

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/unique-everybody-else/201209/psilocybin-and-personality

What I found curious was how compelled I was to write along with my photography. When I was deep in the trip, before I lost total control I was uninhibited on being open about my emotions. Ive always toyed with this but my ego sort of held me back. In the trip it just flowed out of me and what sounded right I commited to completely. These poems accompanied posts on instagram. Some poems made and attached to a photo, some inspired by one of my photos.. It just kept coming and coming. I sill have that urge now.

On and the Cassidy decal I have on thr back of my phone, I caught a glimpse of him while I was off it. I had to look away. He was moving. I think I would have totally freaked if he started interacting with me.
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« Reply #289 on: November 17, 2018, 08:16:48 PM »
A friend and I are planning on starting a regimen of microdosing mushrooms in January. I知 not expecting much, considering I take mood stabilizers and antipsychotics, but we値l see. Even weed is super dulled to me. I could smoke CBD all day with no effect, and I really only ever feel 70%+ THC.
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« Reply #290 on: November 17, 2018, 08:20:46 PM »
microdosing shrooms is how you trigger schizophrenia
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« Reply #291 on: November 17, 2018, 08:24:02 PM »
Pretty sure I知 out of the danger zone for that.
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« Reply #292 on: November 17, 2018, 10:01:36 PM »
A friend and I are planning on starting a regimen of microdosing mushrooms in January. I知 not expecting much, considering I take mood stabilizers and antipsychotics, but we値l see. Even weed is super dulled to me. I could smoke CBD all day with no effect, and I really only ever feel 70%+ THC.

The only issue with microdosing would be tolerance buildup I believe. You'd have to account for it by doubling and tripling dosage to hit the same level of trip over the course of microdosing. Maybe taling three different distinct tryptamines and microdosing to mitigate this. One each day, then cycling back.

But microdosing is an interesting concept.

As far as schizophrenia, when i heard that voice I'm pretty sure thats what it feels like. It was compelling me to do things not directly tied to the voice itself. Youd have to take a heroic dose to get there for sure.

I'm reading about directing the trip once you become comfortable. Being able to will things into existence. As terrifying as this was my curiosity is going to get the best of me again. But not for a while.
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« Reply #293 on: November 23, 2018, 11:21:58 PM »
So i hand stuffed 140 capsules with cactus powder, and choked them all down in the span of an hour. Ive been slowly climbing for the past 8 hours. I keep thinking its just gonna fade but nope. 50g of this fucker is very slowly realeasing in my intestines right now.
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« Reply #294 on: November 24, 2018, 05:51:31 PM »

Darkness falls
And I don't know whether to feel
Relieved or
Afraid
All that I know is
I am happy to feel
Something


This darkness calls again
With one hand
Clutching my throat
The other
Caressing my cheek
I look into its eyes
With absolute love
Because I truly do not
Give a fuck


Oh baby
You think you know darkness?
How about you look into my eyes
Watch as my pupils dilate
As my face begins to grin
Oh my love
You don't know shit

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« Reply #295 on: November 24, 2018, 08:13:59 PM »

You do not know me
And if my miserable life continues as it does
You never will
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« Reply #296 on: November 29, 2018, 01:32:10 AM »
Dropping acid for the first time ever at a BDSM show.

Bad idea or baaad idea?  :doge

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« Reply #297 on: November 29, 2018, 02:06:36 AM »
Great idea;  LSD is a great drug. 

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« Reply #298 on: November 29, 2018, 05:51:06 AM »
Its like trying to thread a needle but maybe see if you can get a dosage thats best for you
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« Reply #299 on: November 30, 2018, 07:51:43 PM »

Your Spring lips
to my
Winter heart
Breath life into what is
dead
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