Started having stuff sneak into my thoughts last night that I really didn't want, tried going to bed and found I couldn't sleep either. Ended up taking a hit from the Dosist pen I bought for times like this and playing Ever Oasis on my 3DS for a bit before finally falling asleep.
Woke up earlier than I wanted and still felt blech. Talked to this old dude who lives down my block that I'm friends with for awhile (we are both Seahawks fans), it's interesting to hear his perspective on stuff because he's over 65, a smoker and also works primarily as a delivery driver for UberEats/GrubHub. He said he's trying to get state unemployment and his Trump Bucks because the risk of him driving right now is just too high. I gotta admit I have been worried about him since this thing started, so I always stay and talk to him as long as he wants because you never know.
After that, I didn't eat breakfast which was a mistake and alternated between playing FF7r and reading for the book club I'm in. I finally got hungry and ate early, then showered and tried taking my dog on a log walk. I don't know if she's just sick of long walks or if the sun made her tired but she was going much slower than I wanted and I could feel myself being really impatient and frustrated. I think I probably needed some higher energy exercise than a walk.
I've felt this sort of, restless anxiety all day and I don't know what it is. Part of me thinks its the Safer at Home ordinance getting extended even though I expected that, part of me felt like it was because I had put off my book club reading until today and had a ton to finish (which I did with 30 minutes to spare) and part of me just thinks I'm trying to get in my feels about my ex and I'm frustrated that I can't go a whole week without that happening.
I dunno, I ate a snack, drank water, took some tylenol and finished my reading and I feel a bit better. Of course Twitter is fucking up and that's what my book club was using to organize and no one can see anyone else's messages so I don't know what is gonna happen.
I made some spaghetti and smoked some weed, so I guess I'm gonna be relaxed now and just play FF7r until I need to take my dog out again.