I seriously wonder how Nepenthe rationalizes in her mind, how as a functioning, non-mentally stunted, non-disabled person like her can't attain marketable skills in 2022 because of a past history of chattel slavery. At some point do you just throw your hands up in the air and say, "I have no free will. The whites took it from me." And if so, why even live? Or why not move? Do white people just control everything no matter where you go? What's the point of even waking up in the morning? Also, what does her brain do when it sees a black doctor, lawyer, programmer, banker, professor...? It just short-circuits or reflexively belts out, "COON!" at the raw impossibility of it all?