Thanks all.
Was able to stay at home today together which was nice and family took care of our kid.
Its our second miscarriage and its a lot easier now that we already have a healthy girl, but still it hits hard because it felt like we were a family of four already.
Last time this happened I started drinking way more then I should (well I already was but then it spiralled out of control), which actually led to me stopping drinking as much, so its kind of ironic this happened now during sober october, I felt like getting a drink but havent so that only shows how shit has changed in 5 years.