We've been over this! I can't afford to go to the doctor, aside from my psychiatrist who is waiving her fee this month (that appointment is on the 27th, I believe).
Most people that know me, Walrus, know I am a career Trier-o-maniac. I am more intimate with Antichrist than I should be.
I haven't started drinking yet. After throwing up in the parking lot I went into Fred Meyer, bought one fifth and one 375ml bottle of rum, 4 20oz red bulls and a large bottle of water. I used said water to try to disperse as much of the vomit as possible in the parking lot, but since I had just eaten it like literally 5 minutes before, it was still like a solid meal so it didn't really dissipate, but since it still basically looked like food it probably wouldn't really look like vomit unless an observer got super into investigating. It's also foggy so no one will probably even notice. Being how salty Dennys food is it's probably healthier that I threw up so much. Most of the chunkier, wetter part of the vomit ended up on the side/interior of my car (I basically opened the car door after parking and erupted everywhere. Pretty sure there's no vomit on my clothes). After the episode I had 2 of the red bulls and decided to chill out at home and maybe listen to my body and not drink for a few hours. I sat on my bed and listened to Blood on the Tracks on my headphones. I restrung my guitar and considered trying to remember how to play the little I know of Tangled Up in Blue. I ended up singing along instead because it and Idiot Wind are the best songs ever recorded. Now I feel ready to drink. I'm still sick and dizzy and flu-y, but my kidneys don't hurt anymore although I can still kind of physically feel them, which is arguably not a good thing. Current plan is to pound that 375ml-er, drink another red bull, move on to a fifth. The reason I went with a 375ml bottle is because I was too exuberant in drinking that first full fifth last night, so I think having something physically smaller will allow myself to pace better. For those not counting, in addition to that smaller bottle, I have 3 fifths and one half fifth.
Being that you've all FAILED me in recommendations, again, I'm going to be binge watching Saved by the Bell.
