Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care

[Madrun Badrun]

Ya I've come a long way in the last 4 years, despite having major depression episodes like ever year.  Things keep looking better and I'm thankful for that. 

[zomgee]

Man when it rains it pours.


My dad who is 74 is going under a double bypass and valve replacement next Tuesday. This is just crazy. He had a cath done today and they found genetic blockage (not fat or cholesterol) and they wanted to go after it quickly. Docs say it'll add 15 years to his life which sounds great. But i don't want my dad to hurt.   Hes the only person who gets me. I'm really scared.

I need a break from all this real shit.

[Madrun Badrun]

Hope everything goes well dude.

[I'm a Puppy!]

Hope it all goes well!

If it makes you feel any better bypass surgery is ridiculously profitable for hospitals so they do tons of them so it's a routine they're very used to.

Don't know if it helps. But I hope it does.

[zomgee]

I know. I work in a hospital, my brother works as a recruiter at another hospital, my mom was a nurse, hell my dad was director of engineering for a hospital. I know that the day after his surgery he'll be sitting up in a chair and then walking. Which is nuts. The fact they can do this surgery in a town of about 30,000 is amazing and shows how far medicine has come.

But it's my dad.

I mean I know I'm not special, life is hard but for all the 2016 sucks meme crap this year has been hard. I lost my cousin last week and he was like my brother, my daughter is stuck emotionally and won't move on, there's been some relationship issues between me and the wife, and my job is eating at me. I lost my title and I didn't realize how much it meant to me.

It's very hard for me right now to see the positives, even though I'm sure anyone else could list them.

I came home on Tuesday night and just slept until the next morning. Didn't say anything to anyone, I just wanted to feel like I had some control and the only thing I thought I could control was being alone and sleeping.

I know, wah wah. Sorry. I should be more thankful.

[chronovore]

Don't get down on yourself for not being thankful. It's just another thing to beat yourself up about, feeding that cycle. Sleeping like that, it's about retreat, about running away. It can also be about processing and healing. I'm sad you're having such a rough time. You'll get through this.

[bluemax]

Publisher making thinly veiled threats to cancel our game because their QA is shit

That's the absolute best!

Hope your guys' contract about QA coverage is solid. Sorry they're being dicks.

I don't know what the contract is, but I know they weren't thorough enough and we failed 3 submissions (for an undocumented process that doesn't formally exist), so if we fail the one coming up this weekend then they're gonna pull the plug.

[Steve Contra]

A friend thinks he lost several of his friends in the Oakland fire last night.  Jesus fucking christ.

[Madrun Badrun]

wow, thats terrible

[Steve Contra]

The whole thing is so fucked up. :'(

[Steve Contra]

And I just talked to another friend who lost someone.  Fuck.

[zomgee]

What a complete tragedy. Horrific.

[zomgee]

My dad did well. When they opened him up they did a 3D scan and found they only needed to do one valve and one bypass. I'm sitting here with him now. He's sitting up in a chair and we're watching the national news together.

Amazing how his rib cage was open yesterday with somebody's hands on his heart and he's up talking to me right now.

[Great Rumbler]

Good to hear that things went well, zomgee!

[bluemax]

We passed submission.

[Tasty]

My PM's/DM's are always open breh.

[ToxicAdam]

Wanting to avoid people when you experienced pain from them isn't unnatural. We all need time to heal. Just don't let it become a permanent lifestyle.

[Mupepe]

My PM's/DM's are always open breh.

Pm sent

[Cerveza mas fina]

Shit Wrath, hang in there buddy. We're your online family <3

[Great Rumbler]

Wish I could do more, but Plug.DJ's always here when you wanna just talk about random stuff and watch dope anime/listen to cool music with your true bros.

[Phoenix Dark]

we heard you needed friends Kaffir...well here we are.

[chronovore]

[Huff]

Small airports, behind a 50ish yo first time flyer

Security: please remove yada yada before walking through the metal detecter

Spend next ten minutes walking through and retrying as he removes his watch, neckless, keys, loose change, etc.

Eventually it still continues to go off. Guy says "oh yeah I had a knee replaced, does that matter?"

I'm still debating if murdering him is worth it

[Freyj]

Our insane (but wealthy! $$$) client has now officially driven away 2 of the best people I've ever worked with and said client's bullshit is about to fall squarely on my shoulders.

Time to get the fuck out.

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interviewing 

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[Tasty]

Long sad post from earlier.

Hey guys.

Just wanted to say that while things are still shitty I really appreciate the support my bore brethren have shown me. Not just now but over the years. Y'all are great. I'll keep on keeping on and see if shit pivots while I try to make the most of what I have.

Thank you.

[Himu]

Wow. Should read this thread more often. Shoot me a Twitter Dm any time.

[I'm a Puppy!]

You don't need another person to PM but I'm always here too.

[Madrun Badrun]

Had a massive headache all night and was out of pain killers / cheap booze.  Worst night in a long time. 

[Steve Contra]

Steve, from your posts in this thread it sounds like you had a tough year. Sorry for all of that. Just know you got some dumb dude who plays too many videogames over here always ready to listen if you need an ear to bend.

Take it easy, man.

Thanks breh. It's been a nightmare year. There's a bunch of stuff I didn't post about here, but things have been slightly better for me and more importantly a few very close people who have had it worse.

[Human Snorenado]

So, I have type 2 diabetes and my cholesterol is through the roof. Not sure if I should drink myself to death or eat enough pork to finish the job. Maybe some combo of both? Just drink really sugary drinks with bacon chasers?

[Madrun Badrun]

I'm pretty sure I'll get it when I become an old geezer.  Take care of your self.  Its scary shit. 

[CatsCatsCats]

That really sucks, maybe we can all pitch in and get you a wii fit

[Mupepe]

So, I have type 2 diabetes and my cholesterol is through the roof. Not sure if I should drink myself to death or eat enough pork to finish the job. Maybe some combo of both? Just drink really sugary drinks with bacon chasers?

[Huff]

You know how I know you're American

[Madrun Badrun]

Human you should watch all 7 seasons of this show and then live in constant anxiety that you are going to go blind and loss a foot, like I do.  Its how I relax. 

[Madrun Badrun]

Also watch all of this

[Human Snorenado]

The real tragedy of all of this is that I've lost like 15 pounds this year. I'm still like 30-40 pounds overweight, but still. I guess you can't just eat nothing but trash for an adult lifetime and expect to be ok.

[Phoenix Dark]

Gotta start somewhere. Cooking is cheaper than eating out. Maybe walk more, and eventually move to jogging. It's bad news but you can use it to get to a better place bro.

[CatsCatsCats]

Black beans and rice is delicious with good seasoning

[brawndolicious]

My dad was in the same position as you until he got a stomach stapling 

But you're already on the right path so it probably makes the most sense to just continue working it. Weight loss suuuuuucks a big nut in terms of mental stress tho from what I've seen.

Gotta start somewhere. Cooking is cheaper than eating out. Maybe walk more, and eventually move to jogging. It's bad news but you can use it to get to a better place bro.

Biking is also good cardio without punishing your knees.

[Atramental]

https://medium.com/@hellokip/everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-slow-carb-diet-a67062761d92#.puqwlbrzi
http://fourhourworkweek.com/2012/07/12/how-to-lose-100-pounds/

This is my go to "diet". Actually it's more of a lifestyle since this is basically how I eat week to week (for about 3 years now) for the most part.

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Hopefully I convince my gf to do the same because she would be hot as fuck if she lost 30 more lbs. 

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[Mupepe]

https://medium.com/@hellokip/everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-slow-carb-diet-a67062761d92#.puqwlbrzi
http://fourhourworkweek.com/2012/07/12/how-to-lose-100-pounds/

This is my go to "diet". Actually it's more of a lifestyle since this is basically how I eat week to week (for about 3 years now) for the most part.

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Hopefully I convince my gf to do the same because she would be hot as fuck if she lost 30 more lbs. 

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Know how I know you're an amateur?  You implied that she isn't hot as fuck now.  That's a no no if you want to survive the relationship game.   

[Human Snorenado]

My dad was in the same position as you until he got a stomach stapling 

But you're already on the right path so it probably makes the most sense to just continue working it. Weight loss suuuuuucks a big nut in terms of mental stress tho from what I've seen.

Gotta start somewhere. Cooking is cheaper than eating out. Maybe walk more, and eventually move to jogging. It's bad news but you can use it to get to a better place bro.

Biking is also good cardio without punishing your knees.

I'm 5'9" and weigh 220, down from 240 last year. I'm not in that terrible of shape... except for my blood is apparently butter and sugar.

[Madrun Badrun]

https://medium.com/@hellokip/everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-slow-carb-diet-a67062761d92#.puqwlbrzi
http://fourhourworkweek.com/2012/07/12/how-to-lose-100-pounds/

This is my go to "diet". Actually it's more of a lifestyle since this is basically how I eat week to week (for about 3 years now) for the most part.

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Hopefully I convince my gf to do the same because she would be hot as fuck if she lost 30 more lbs. 

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Stick to Slow-Carb Diet approved foods 6 days a week: lean meat, beans, and veggies and no white foods like sugar, pasta, rice, bread, cheese.

OK you Hotep

[Atramental]

https://medium.com/@hellokip/everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-slow-carb-diet-a67062761d92#.puqwlbrzi
http://fourhourworkweek.com/2012/07/12/how-to-lose-100-pounds/

This is my go to "diet". Actually it's more of a lifestyle since this is basically how I eat week to week (for about 3 years now) for the most part.

spoiler (click to show/hide)

Hopefully I convince my gf to do the same because she would be hot as fuck if she lost 30 more lbs. 

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Know how I know you're an amateur?  You implied that she isn't hot as fuck now.  That's a no no if you want to survive the relationship game.   

Oh, don't worry. I've already deflected several of her "Am I too fat?" comments.

But she's a vegetarian and it's very easy to eat a bunch of unhealthy carbs on a vegetarian diet.

[Human Snorenado]

I'm 5'9" and weigh 220

I'm not in that terrible of shape

In America, that's a true statement. 

[Madrun Badrun]

My dad was in the same position as you until he got a stomach stapling 

But you're already on the right path so it probably makes the most sense to just continue working it. Weight loss suuuuuucks a big nut in terms of mental stress tho from what I've seen.

Gotta start somewhere. Cooking is cheaper than eating out. Maybe walk more, and eventually move to jogging. It's bad news but you can use it to get to a better place bro.

Biking is also good cardio without punishing your knees.

I'm 5'9" and weigh 220, down from 240 last year. I'm not in that terrible of shape... except for my blood is apparently butter and sugar.

I'm the same height as you, was the same weight as you a year or so ago but got down to 180 now. Still have ways to go myself but if I can do it, so can you.

I'm 5'8 and at 180.  Up 10 from the summer

[Madrun Badrun]

I'm 5'9" and weigh 220

I'm not in that terrible of shape

In America, that's a true statement. 

That was one of the best things I liked about those links I posted.  180:  I'm not over weight, 200 is over weight.  200: I'm not fat, 250 is fat.  300:  I'm not obese, 400 is obese.   

[T234]

6'1" 240 here.

[Tasty]

5'10" 130 

[CatsCatsCats]

6'1" 180

[Atramental]

5'11" 180 lbs 

[brawndolicious]

Whoa you guys measuring from the taint?

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5' 11.5'' and 155 but I could be leaner

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[Madrun Badrun]

How else am I suppose to weigh myself? 

[chronovore]

5'9" (174cm) and 200+ lbs.

I'm pigging out while in the USA, but will be losing weight with intent when I get back to Japan.

[Mupepe]

6ft and 262 lbs. officially the fattest motherfucker here. Fuck y'all. Woo!

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cholesterol and blood pressure is excellent btw. Exercise does wonders for basic vitals

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[Huff]

Hospital cafeterias froyo machine is broken

Worst New Years ever

[Samson Manhug]

6'1" 165 and I think I have body dismorphia because when I look in the mirror I see a meat muppet

[Human Snorenado]

6'1" 165 and I think I have body dismorphia because when I look in the mirror I see a meat muppet

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Not really. I went on a few dates with a 5'7" woman that weighed less than 120 earlier this year and was stunning, and later found out that she has suffered from eating disorders and was a cutter because she thought she was disgusting.

The human mind, man. 

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[CatsCatsCats]

I used to be very tied to being thin as a part of my identity, I've really filled out muscle wise in the last few years and it's allowed me to feel comfortable with holdin a little extra for prosperity