I've been looking into exit bags recently. Seems to be a clean way and painless way so I think with my next few paychecks I'm gonna order the parts.
My relationship with my mother has gotten really bad. It's to the point where she's scared to say pretty much anything in fear of how I'll react. It's depressing to be around.
My friendship with my Mexican friend has detoried. I don't even know what the problem is, and I don't care anymore. Women are crazy and I'm tired of being used and abused by them. I'll never find what I want so it doesn't matter. I knew we couldnt be friends and well I was right,
I have a nice refund check from school coming. I'm going to use it to complete the den room for my nieces so they can have a room in the house to play Minecraft or whatever. Thats my current goal, after that I'm going to continue to look into my suicide options. I read a thread on GAF I think that basically said that death is like a everlasting sleep which sounds nice. I'm really tired of ling and having to deal with being the loser that is me so that sounds well pleasurable.
It's odd, my recent suicide experince while traumatic took a lot of fear out about the whole thing. So this time I won't be afraid, I know it's something that has to be done. So I'm looking forward to it. There's just a few things I need to wrap up before I pull the trigger.