She moved to Arizona for her job. She's a Rez Life admin at one of the colleges there. I think she decided that it would be better to go first to set herself up and get herself situated. She also realized that finally finishing school would be good for myself and it's something I need to do for me. The option of finishing school where she is, is an option, but I'm already 106 credits deep where I am.
But I mean the plan and desire is for me to move out to where she is. She has said she sees a future and that she wants me to come out to her. Though she also thinks I need to visit her first for an obviously needed trial run of living together. She wants me to be successful on my own.
She has reassured me that she is very happy with what we have and that I make her feel ways that no one else has and that our sex has been the best she's had. That she's not intersted in looking for anyone, nor does she think she'd have the time anyway because of her job. If anythings she's more jealous and worried about me. I mean obvuisly we've talked a lot about this and the point is we both want it to continue and think trying long distance first is better. If we can survive that, maybe its as worthwhile as we think or something.
It's not a perfect comparison, but I've stayed close with my best friend while he's lived overseas and far away thanks to him being in the military. We don't talk every day or every week. Sometimes we go a week or two without talking. I like my space and doing my own thing. As long as I have some contact I don't question the streght of my relationship. She and I are somewhat the same that we aren't one of those lovey dovey couple and like our space. When we were together it's not like she was constantly questioning what I was doing or got mad when I did things without her. We enjoy each other's company, but we also are our own people. I think thats one of the things we like about each other.
So I'm not as hopeless about this situation. I mean we'll still talk and play games online. I'll visit her when I can. Are personalities aren't dependent on always being together. So I think a long distance thing can work.
Obviously there's the lack of physical connection. She has sexual appetite as do I, but I mean both of us have gone long stretches without sex. And well I she likes me because in her words "I make her feel special, make her feel like she knows what she's doing, beautiful during sex and outside of it, feel right and normal, not dirty or a whore as other people have". She makes me feel like a worthwhile person and is someone I can be confortable and open with. I have obviously had plenty of issues and it's amazing that I met a person who is actually understanding of me. Which is probably why our sex life has been good. I don't think this is something you can build with just anyone either. We both have hang ups with it comes to sex, so both of us aren't out here just looking for quick fucks.
So I don't know. This where we are at I guess. She's said she's going to wait for me. I'm taking my first steps to resume and finish school. I don't know where things are going to go obviously.
