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Been confessing a lot of shit about myself lately to people that I know.
I've been telling so many lies and I have so many secrets. 
Kind of reminds me of me in 2009.
I had my first "real world" job and the pay was great but I lived in an economically depressed shithole with no friends or family. If I had to visit friends, I had to drive nearly two hours away and family was 4-5 hours away. I tried online dating but the dating pool there was so depressing. So I'd spend every minute not at work on the internet, where I'd stay up to all kinds of crazy hours, mostly just browsing forums like here and NeoGAF. I'd average maybe 4-5 hours of sleep a day. During the weekends, I'd get up around 6 AM, left the shades drawn, and would only step out to grab a burger at Wendy's that was located a couple blocks away and then I'd realize that oh shit, it was 10 PM and I wasted another day. At the work place, I had no real idea how to conduct myself professionally. I was smart and good at my job but my relationship building skills were non existent. There were a number of incompetent co-workers and I let them know often that they did shitty work. That or I'd not want to talk to anyone and grind through a bunch of shit. I soon built up a mountain of bad will that I ignored at first and then became seemingly insurmountable. There were rumors that I was well on my way to getting shitcanned and in the 2009 economy and a pile of student loan debt that I was just beginning to chisel my way through, that would have likely sent me back to my parent's place, trying to find any work that would just cover the interest on my loans.
I request a week off from work. When I came back, I started apologizing to people and trying to make things right with my co-workers. Even though I did a bunch of damage, they were good people (even if they were shit at their jobs) so within a few weeks I was back in their good graces again. At the same time I had put in a transfer to work somewhere closer to friends and family. I wound up accepting it and they threw a huge going away party for me. Four years later and I'm still in occasional contact with most of them. Knowing what I did, in 2010 I wound up unfucking my unpleasant personality to being someone that people actually liked spending time with. I got along great with others, got a few promotions, and saw my salary more than double. I ditched the draining negativity and became a more positive person.
I guess my point is that you can turn this shit around at any time if you want to.
