Nice vaguebooking, loser.
I had to look up this term.
Not loser though. No I'm familiar with that word.
But nothing really exciting, just another of my failures.
I've mentioed this girl here before, my mexican friend that I work with and I can't seem to just get over her. We have really good chemistry and I'm not even the only person who thinks this. My friends(both male and female) think this, my bossess think this, people tell me something could be there. I even pick up on body language sometimes, or at least pick up something. I mean I could be wrong, but I don't think it should be that hard to tell with people.
Either way it was her birthday and she had made plans for everyone to go out. She constantly told others to make sure I was going, told my guy friends I had to go. Stuff like that I guess I can't help to read into. Got mad when I said I did'nt want to go and I did'nt because I knew what would happen.
Well my friends convinced me to go and well we did. We got there, she wasn't really all that excited to see me(yeah I know this reads as selfish) and basicly
just was with her group, occiasonaly coming over to my group. I Just decided to get drunk, because I wanted to have some friends and there was another guy in her group(not friends with her, but friends with her female friend) who from a previous story I know was all about her and while she was over with us for a bit he came over and I just decided to step in front of him and talk to her. I mean I was so drunk, I don't even know if it was a big deal or anything. My guy took me away for a sec and when I came back the dude was gone and well I just drank more beer, danced, and did whatever. I saw her talking to some other dude who was talking to her and her friend. My friend said she was curving him, I don't know at that point I didnt care and we decided to leave. She called later(probably wondering where we went), but my friends took my cellphone away so..
I don't know, I just want to be over this girl. Shes cool, I can talk to her, but it's obvious she's just stringing me along and it's obvious I can't be actual platonic friends with her. I'm just tired of being a loser y'know. I would just like to "win" once. (yes I know that sounds bad).
But of course what I'll take away from this is that my negative opinions were right, this whole thing was a waste of time, and when I belive a girl is'nt intersted I'm probably right and they never are so why even waste my time?
Yes, I know the advice here is always be trying and maybe one day I'll get that, because it's a numbers game. Well I don't know hopefully I'll meet some cool chicks sometime, at 26 this is getting real pathetic.
But man I've never felt so manly before. I was ready to throw down and I was like I know I can take this douche looking guy. Stupid manly, but it was nice to feel some sort of male bravado for once.
BTW, there's no guarantee that a mail order waifu won't just leave you once there's no chance that she will get deported.
One of the old guys at work has one actually. His parents bought her for him. They have two children and well he's managed to keep a hold on her. It certainly is'nt the job, Target Mobile can't pay that much.
But I also really don't want an Asian wife.
