Why is it the big shitty things sink in slowly and don't really bother you, but the little shitty things just send you over the edge?
Fucking broke but I have lots of room on two credit cards. Oh wait, they expired and got sent to my sister's address in MA since I've been waiting to get out of my parents' in CT before I update my address. Oh, guess she didn't even receive them in the mail anyways.
Maybe I'll play same Monster Hunter, I haven't really gamed in months, maybe that'll cheer me up. Oh wait, my Pro Controller is fucking dead.
Mom's dementia and memory loss has gotten sharply worse since I've come back.
I haven't dated in 4 years and honestly at this point I've idealized my next romantic partner so much literally no one can ever clear that bar. I have access to 5% of the population and gays don't give a shit about monogamy so no hope there.
The only reason I've been working so hard for so long is to get my own place. Found out today I probably can't even do that.
My YouTube Premium expired 5 minutes ago. I have the family plan so now my entire family knows I'm goddamn broke and they have to watch ads now. I FUCKING HATE ADS
7 days a week and I can't even pay myself. What the fuck is the point of living
Tackle one problem at a time and in this case I would start with the 7 days of working and not making ends meet.
Usually a fresh new perspective can help to make the business prosper again. Late last year our creative director suddenly quit. I was left with a bunch of unfinished projects right before the holiday season and half-baked work that went return to sender. I barely had time for anything but work and I couldn't really celebrate our ~15% profit increase.
Everyone sort of expected I would just replace him with a new hire who would then build a new design team but instead I completely changed our direction. He was doing some things just for the sake of doing things, they weren't profitable and no one really liked doing them. He also couldn't really change things because he was already overworked doing the work he felt he 'had to do' and he had fired designers that he felt weren't good enough or as good as him. In the end it was just him, an intern and another designer. His team was responsible for 50% of our revenue but made only marginal profits. So the first thing I did when he quit was to integrate the design team into the development team and cut all design-only services. Design always has to be part of a development project.
In about 4 months our positioning has improved a lot as we're no longer chasing every penny but are instead focused and specialized.
The bar for other companies to hire us for specific development work is much lower as they no longer have to worry that we will also compete for the adwords campaigns, social media posts or want to take over a bunch of IT stuff.
However unlike other 'just development' teams we also include high quality design by default. Because our teams and processes are now integrated this is much more efficient and far less risky than hiring a seperate designer.
I've introduced a new directive this month that for each new 'high value' client we sign an old 'low value' client has to go. Eventually replacing all the clients we'd rather not have with better clients.
It was a big gamble and it took a while for everyone to understand the new direction but it is really starting to resonate.
People are starting to say to me that it's probably for the best that our creative director quit and I was quite surprised by that but it is true that I wouldn't have been able to implement these radical changes with him still around.

The only solution he could think about was 'charge more' for the same low value things.
Fixing all this meant losing about 10 maybe 20 opportunities at the start of this year that I would've been happy with a year ago. But now we're starting to get much better opportunities and I can work on my health.