Filler, as I mentioned -- I'm in the same boat. I lost my dog of 15 years very recently. He was my best bud and I loved him so, so much. But I always remind myself that this is a good opportunity to rescue another dog that really needs a home. You mentioned you needed good things to start happening - extending yourself to others, especially animals that need a loving home, is a really gratifying, good thing. I have no doubt you gave that pup the best life, and you have a lot more to give when time heals the wound. Hope you feel better, I know it hurts, brother.
