I don't think she's crazy as much as she is really really picky as to dating and that's why she has trouble finding bfs. She's pretty honest about having zero interest at all in me. Which is weird because it's hard to think you can find a person attractive and flirt with them and hang out with them if you have no interest at all on an emotional level, but that's how it is. I honestly don't know if I'll see her again after having been with her a couple of times now, we talked last night and it seemed like "this is the end; goodbye; never see again mood (of course after heavy intimate session)" but then she kept making out with me as I was trying to leave and I even asked her to her face "why are you kissing me if this is over" and she's basically just like "I dunno, it feels good".
Her big reason she is against just being NSA/FwB/FB (even though she is very down with it if I can handle it as well because she loves kissing me and thinks I'm hot and good in bed) is that she sees me looking at her like I would look at a gf with eyes looking deep into her soul and it makes her feel bad because she feels absolutely nothing back. So even though she enjoys the sex she thinks I'll always be treating it more like sex w/a gf and treat her well and that will ruin the sex for her and make her feel bad.
At the end last night tried to convey that I was ok with her physical want for no emotions, no attachments, possibly doing this every week or two as long as were both single, sex. That a night at her place or mine having fun until dawn would be a lot of fun and she sort of bit her lip and thought about it and was like "that's reaaaaally tempting...maybe". So then as I was leaving and we were still kissing all the way to the door I'm like "so let's do this?" and she's like "possibly" and then after I kissed her a bit more "maybe". And then I left.
So I dunno, either she's going to in a week or two feel like doing this and we'll get together again, or she'll think about it and figure it's not going to work and just bail entirely and never talk to me again. Personally I think it's really stupid that if two people enjoy talking to each other, hanging out with each other, kissing each other, and sleeping with each other, that they should just GIVE UP and BAIL OUT and never talk again; and I let her know this; to me it seems utterly illogical, but people have weird reactions to emotions and sex and dating. /shrugwhatareyougoingtodo?
At this point I don't care since the only reason I did care was because I liked her and that feeling wasn't mutual so I'm treating this like it's over and moving on to other stuff (I have a date with a different girl tonight and then another one on Friday). But if she's willing to continue this, I am very down to just have fun.
You know, I thought maybe I'm just bad at reading women but when I talked to her she admitted that I was reading her right, that she was flirting with me and wanted me, but I was reading it for the wrong reasons (she wanted me on a purely attraction level and that's why she did that, whereas I thought she was flirting and wanted me because she wanted to date me). Since I'm not a psychic, there's really no way I could have known this! So at least I feel like I wasn't doing anything wrong; it was just an odd situation to be in.
