So pain was really low on Saturday and had a good day (when you're pain free for the first time in 5 days you feel really energetic and good!), but got bad again on Sunday and lost most of the day just trying to not focus on pain. Guess I pretty much have to get back on my meds on Tuesday and hopefully things get back to normal.
But I've been kinda depressed about going back on my immune-suppressant meds. Not only am I risking my life while on it going and getting infusions, but basically for the next 6-12 months dating and friends are gonna be high risk.
Like it's already been where sometimes I kiss someone on a date and get a cold or something. But until either vaccines are out or the curve is so low it would be like 1/10,000 chance the person I"m on a date with could have Covid, then any physical contact/dates with anyone is risking dying. So I don't see myself dating for a long while, which sucks since I've been since for like 5 years now and was hoping to settle down soon. I've been doing some online dating chatting with a couple people and it's going well and at least one is dtf but yeah that ain't gonna open.
Same with friends. My friends who are all healthy and late 20s, early 30s, once things get better will be out doing hugs and events and stuff regularly. But I can't risk being that close contact with people while I have no immune system until this thing is very under control. So basically gonna have to not see my friends for 6-12 months.
Family, while I can see them from a distance and talk to them on the phone, I can't be up close at family dinners or events until 6-12 months.
Going to restaurants/eating take out etc...while lower risk, given my immune system, I'll probably need to continue only eating my own cooked food and instacart market deliveries for another 6-12 months.
And I'll need to keep wfh while the rest of my office goes back to work, which is ok, but still isolating.
A lot of this pretty low risk stuff once the curve goes down substantially, if I wasn't immune suppressed with the moderate potential of death upon contracting COVID, I'd be ok with the risk of doing and if I get Covid I'll probably be ok with a normal healthy immune system of a 38 year old non-smoker, non-obese person. But now I'm gonna have to be back on my meds, so basically gonna have no life outside working from home and playing videogames, watching books, reading for 6-12 months.