Too soon about what?
Well my 'ladyfriend" (sure that's what we will call her) decided to reach out to me again. Pretty much saying that in the week that she cut contact with me and said she was done, she felt extreme loss and missed me. Well, I mean it's not like I wasn't sad. I was and I also felt a loss, but like I said in the last post I also felt a strange sense of relief. I mean I still like her and care for her, but it's also going to continue being a long distance relationship. Which yeah means no sex, but that wasn't a real problem with me. And while you guys make fun of me, the only thing I kind of asked was that we played video games online on a regular basis. Both of us have lives and while we would talk and text on the phone, you know we both work so the routine was to play Cod or whatever every night. But honestly, I don't want to play with anyone else and she has this friend that she has to play with. I just calmly tried to say that I wasn't big on that and she got pissed and then railed into me, blaming all her problems on me and whatever. It being long distance was already hardmode and hey you know it did'nt work so she said she was done. Now she wants to reopen communication. And it's like thats nice I guess...But I don't know man. During that week, I was sad the first day, but then I reached out to my friends. A friend got FFXIV so I've been playing an hour with him each day. I went out with another good friend. I watched Minority Report, a movie I love. I bought some movies and and games with my income tax that I now did'nt have to spend on airplane ticket. I did'nt try and wallow in my sadness, I tried to do stuff I like and be social in other ways. So now that she is talking to me, it feels "nice", but eh....I still have to play with her friend I'd rather not. I still live in some vague zone where I don't know what the point of this relationship is. I'm still not having sex. It's like that week she "took of" kind of was perfectly fine and I am questioning if it was a bad thing she stopped talking to me.