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« Reply #4620 on: February 07, 2020, 10:41:09 PM »
So I almost died.

Had a little bit of phlegm in my lungs, had the first cough to bring it out of my lungs and into my throat, but couldn't get it out from my throat with my 2nd or next few coughs. So what happened is a bunch of phlegm blocked my airways and I started choking to death and couldn't breathe and eventually I was able to get some air through the phlegm and breathe. But I never got the phlegm out so yeah.

Definitely concerned about this happening again. I've been taking an expectorant every 4 hours and drinking lots of water, so that this still happened is bad.
this would happen to me during sleep anytime I got sick as a kid  :stahp waking up in the middle of the night all through childhood struggling to breathe  :tocry
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« Reply #4621 on: February 08, 2020, 12:11:05 AM »
So I almost died.

Had a little bit of phlegm in my lungs, had the first cough to bring it out of my lungs and into my throat, but couldn't get it out from my throat with my 2nd or next few coughs. So what happened is a bunch of phlegm blocked my airways and I started choking to death and couldn't breathe and eventually I was able to get some air through the phlegm and breathe. But I never got the phlegm out so yeah.

Definitely concerned about this happening again. I've been taking an expectorant every 4 hours and drinking lots of water, so that this still happened is bad.

:( That sounds dangerous. Should you maybe call your health care’s 24/7 line and see if this is worth going to the hospital for? I’d be worried about sleeping. Take care of yourself, bebps!
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« Reply #4622 on: February 08, 2020, 01:41:29 AM »
thanks, yeah docs dont think its a big deal. I dont really have enough symptoms for the ER to take me since my lungs are clear and my fever is lowering and 99 or below.

will keep an eye on it. moved back in with the parents so not living alone right now.

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« Reply #4623 on: February 08, 2020, 03:35:19 PM »
Around 3am was able to cough up a thick ball of phlegm from my lungs. After that my lungs were clear and no worries of choking so things got a lot better.

Still feverish ~99f and headache and stuffy, but definitely doing better today on day 3 and slightly functional. Was able to drive to the market and pick up some supplies and was able to eat my first piece of meat in 2.5 days. Haven't had an appetite so haven't been eating anything besides some oatmeal/apple sauce. If I can get back on food that should give my body more energy to fight this thing.

Mostly just trying to take it easy today because whenever I exert myself I start to get fluid in the lungs and as long as I can avoid Bronchitis/Pneumonia, I can probably make it through this thing.

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« Reply #4624 on: February 08, 2020, 11:06:21 PM »
Definitely doing a little better today. Was up to driving around a bit.

Staying with the parents has been hmmm. My parents are sick with this too a day or two or three behind me. They're sick and treating this like it's no big deal even with a 101-102F fever. I tried to get my mom to go to an urgent care and get on the tamiflu antiviral but she was like I don't want to sit for hours in a waiting room with a bunch of sick people and catch something else.

They're in their 70s so an at risk group and google results are telling me that at-risk groups with the flu, high fever and chills should see a doc right away. But they're like you get the flu every few years, drink liquids and rest and it clears up.

Maybe I'm overreacting because I'm not used to the flu and all the coronavirus stuff has me extra worried/paranoid.

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« Reply #4625 on: February 09, 2020, 07:25:09 PM »
Excited for tomorrow being monday since the whole thing where all the doctors that actually know you and your medical history only work M-F meaning if you get an illness towards the end of the week you're shit out of luck over the weekend and may just die because whoops. This isn't the first time I've run into this and it really makes me think that doctors should not be M-F jobs. Or at least their nurse practioner should work Sat/Sun. Yeah there's the walk-in/urgent care doctors but I've had pretty bad experience with them over time and ER is iffy too.

So my flu part is doing a little better, my mom ended up going to an urgent care and they tested her and she had influenza type A which means that's what we all have.

The problem with me specifically and probably why this thing is still been pretty killer is I definitely have bronchitis from it at this point and I'm trying to do my best to not irritate it to pneumonia since I have a very low immune system currently. Even on mucinex type stuff still have a hard lung cough about once an hour or two that brings up a bit of phlegm. So it's hard to let my lungs heal when I keep irratating them :|

If I can live until tomorrow I'll be on the phone with my doctors and find out if there's other stuff they want me to be on at this point to try to control & heal the bronchitis and not let it get to pneumonia.

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« Reply #4626 on: February 09, 2020, 07:30:50 PM »
i hope you survive, m8. 


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« Reply #4627 on: February 09, 2020, 08:22:21 PM »
And now my mom's in the ER with the brain infection from this. They're giving her antibiotics, keeping her on fluids and keeping her for 2-3 days to monitor and run tests  :(
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« Reply #4628 on: February 09, 2020, 08:25:07 PM »
Sorry dude, hope things get better soon. 

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« Reply #4629 on: February 09, 2020, 08:41:51 PM »
hope you and your mom feel better soon or at least hear some good news by tomorrow <3

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« Reply #4630 on: February 09, 2020, 08:55:11 PM »
Sorry Bebpo, some people get super paranoid in hospitals so just try to get everyone to calm down and they'll cruise through the hospital bullshit.

And also she probably didn't catch anything from you, when I had a viral infection a few years ago the doctor said that I was actually not very contagious the day I went in (when symptoms were heaviest). Only the first few days are really contagious and you usually don't know if you just have a cold or a flu during that time.

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« Reply #4631 on: February 10, 2020, 12:01:28 AM »
Thank you all, got back from the hospital and after they got her on IV fluids (which she really needed) and some stuff her vitals got a lot better and fever down to something reasonable in the 101F range. She was a lot more coherent by the time I got to the hospital and they did a spinal tap and ran tests and the doctor seemed think there wasn't a separate infection going on and the confusion and brain lining inflammation was a side effect of the flu. They're keeping her overnight but expect her to be ok to treat at home tomorrow. All good news so far. Hoping for the best.



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« Reply #4632 on: February 10, 2020, 07:51:01 PM »
Yeah, good news today. My mom got discharged from the ER and I spent some time with her and she seems in really good condition, like in that one night she got past the fever part of this and is now just dealing with some of the side effect stuff like sore throat from coughs. She's pretty cheery and has no memory of about 4 hours of yesterday when she went to the ER. Apparently she was at 104F when she got there. My dad who took her filmed some videos of her confusion when it was happening which came in handy at the ER when the first person just asked a few questions and thought she was fine until my dad showed the videos and started asking her more questions. Watching those videos was pretty hard, seeing a close family member confused like that suddenly.

I also seem to have cleared most of this. Saw my GP and my lungs were pretty clear so no Pneumonia and fever & chills is mostly gone. Even the bronchitis lung irritation I had is pretty gone today and don't have much of a cough even if chest is still a bit tight and inflamed. Basically just feels like a light cold now. Getting a little bit of work done from home and will either go back into work tomorrow or Wednesday I think. My brother's basically recovered and is back at work today.

My dad who got this last out of our family's got some symptoms, but he doesn't seem to have any fever and just some cough mild bronchitis stuff which he's taking things for so he seems ok too. Surprisingly my brother's long time gf who lives with him didn't get it at all, but her and my dad might've caught this or something similar in the past and have some immunity.

But overall, all good news. Looks like my family is all ok and hopefully in a few more days we'll all be back on our feet and can get back to work and start catching up. We still need to finish interviews and hire someone asap. At least one of our paralegals is out with this flu as well, but the rest of our employees all seem ok today from what I am being told. Of course, I'm the only person in the entire fucking office that apparently got a flu shot this year. Next fall we're gonna mandate everyone gets them. Need that herd immunity.

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« Reply #4633 on: February 10, 2020, 07:55:10 PM »
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« Reply #4634 on: February 10, 2020, 08:38:07 PM »
I love hearing good news.

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« Reply #4635 on: February 11, 2020, 01:33:45 AM »
So I almost died.

Had a little bit of phlegm in my lungs, had the first cough to bring it out of my lungs and into my throat, but couldn't get it out from my throat with my 2nd or next few coughs. So what happened is a bunch of phlegm blocked my airways and I started choking to death and couldn't breathe and eventually I was able to get some air through the phlegm and breathe. But I never got the phlegm out so yeah.

Definitely concerned about this happening again. I've been taking an expectorant every 4 hours and drinking lots of water, so that this still happened is bad.
Thank you all, got back from the hospital and after they got her on IV fluids (which she really needed) and some stuff her vitals got a lot better and fever down to something reasonable in the 101F range. She was a lot more coherent by the time I got to the hospital and they did a spinal tap and ran tests and the doctor seemed think there wasn't a separate infection going on and the confusion and brain lining inflammation was a side effect of the flu. They're keeping her overnight but expect her to be ok to treat at home tomorrow. All good news so far. Hoping for the best.

Jesus, bebsy, get better, hope your mom gets fully recovered… just, wow. You're dealing with too much.

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« Reply #4636 on: February 11, 2020, 11:37:14 AM »
Flu is really bad this year. A lot of the 2009 H1N1 going around. Take care glad y’all are doing better. Don’t be afraid of going back to be seen in the ER if you get sick/worse as secondary bacterial pneumonia’s are common
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« Reply #4637 on: February 13, 2020, 12:06:42 PM »
you should wear hoodie while posting  :doge
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« Reply #4638 on: February 13, 2020, 12:33:12 PM »
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« Reply #4639 on: February 14, 2020, 02:19:10 AM »
Flu is really bad this year. A lot of the 2009 H1N1 going around. Take care glad y’all are doing better. Don’t be afraid of going back to be seen in the ER if you get sick/worse as secondary bacterial pneumonia’s are common

Thanks, yeah this has been rough.

I'm pretty far recovered at this point. I wasn't able to keep down food for about a week which killed my energy levels. Only back on protein meat today finally. Back at work now but get like 3-4 hours in and then feel drained and go home and nap. Still have a bit of a cough but nothing thick or discolored so it's more annoyance.

My family seems pretty well on recovery too with just same lingering cough and drained energy.

Super behind on work, but slowly getting stuff done and figure will try to work on catching up on the weekend as well.

Definitely see a light at the end of this tunnel. Hopefully by mid-next week will be 100% back to normal along with my family and mostly caught back up on work. We put our interviewing on hold this week, but hopefully will get back to doing interviews next week.

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« Reply #4640 on: February 14, 2020, 03:21:34 AM »
Been having a sore tooth or teeth for a week. Last couple days, it became painful to chew. I sometimes damage my roots from grinding my teeth too much, but I use a night guard religiously now. Despite it, I have been waking up at 3AM from tooth pain, so I saw a dentist. She told me it's just sensitive nerves, damaged, but might recover. Pain washes over me in waves, and the tolerable parts are getting shorter, and the overwhelming pain is growing longer.

Last night, I was curled up in the shower, crying and drooling, I haven't been in this much pain in 15 years or more: the last time I had root troubles with my teeth, and part of my root was necrotized.

Out of habit, I went to work this morning despite waking up throughout the night in pain. On the train, I can't focus on anything, just this insane pain in my jaw. I get to work and make an appointment with the dentist, who can see me immediately. She recognizes that my root is likely irreparably damaged, and asks if I want an emergency root canal procedure. I am in so much pain, I don't see another choice.

Getting properly anesthetized took about 4 more attempts even after she doped me up at the big nerve at the hinge of my jaw, but eventually she got all of my nerves scraped out from inside that molar.

I'm unhappy to have another root canal, but really fucking grateful to not be balled up in pain and waiting for it to get worse.

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« Reply #4641 on: February 14, 2020, 04:16:16 AM »
That sucks. When I had a root canal, the nurse was amazed at my pain tolerance but the periodontist corrected her and said that it's because nerve was completely dead already.

What is dead may never die. It was my Theon.

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« Reply #4642 on: February 14, 2020, 01:02:06 PM »
you know what you have to do. fuck him in the ass

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« Reply #4643 on: February 14, 2020, 01:09:24 PM »
you know what you have to do. fuck him in the ass
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« Reply #4644 on: February 26, 2020, 04:41:26 AM »
I haven't really been posting as much over the last few weeks. Things have been a mess around here. Some day are good and I feel pretty peaceful about myself. Some days are the complete opposite and I feel like shit. I don't really want to share anything as I don't really want to be judged. I just felt like saying things, because I'm having another low episode tonight.

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« Reply #4645 on: February 26, 2020, 11:44:38 PM »
So I think my tooth just broke.

I've had a weird hollow upper back tooth with a hole in it for yeaaaars now. Reabsorbtion they call it. The dentist always said at some point it would break or fall out and when he first discovered it I saw a surgeon about the idea of pulling it and putting in an implant but he wasn't sure the implant would stick because my weakened immune system. Since there was no good solution and the tooth was working fine just left it alone all the years

Tooth feels weird and sharp all over. No pain but the side where there was the hole it just feels sharp and weird all over can't stop messing with it. Dunno how I'm gonna sleep. Guessing the tooth impacted and crushed inwards into a mess of tooth bone.

Will call dentist once they open tomorrow so they can take a look. If that's what it is, they'll have to pull it and then I'll have to make another appt with implant guy to see about that.


First tooth I'm losing! On my way to old age.
But yeah, life's been hell non-stop since about end of November and I'm finally 98% healthy of this H1N1 swine flu with cough almost completely gone and now this happens lol. It just never ends. My karma sucks.

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« Reply #4646 on: February 27, 2020, 12:04:27 AM »
I’m going through the implant process now! Just got my stump put in! Like 3ish months left, hopefully.
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« Reply #4647 on: February 27, 2020, 11:41:02 AM »
Talked to my dentist but he doesn't work in my city on Tue/Thu. He doesn't think it's an emergency, so gonna wait and see him first thing in the morning tomorrow to look at what's going on. I feel like maybe the tooth cracked and there's a fissure crack running down the inner side about halfway. Just gotta chew on the other side today and rinse more often and hope nothing crazy happens.

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« Reply #4648 on: February 28, 2020, 12:15:52 PM »
Well I saw the dentist and it was what I thought, a side of my tooth had collapsed into the hollow inside. He poked it for like 2 seconds and a chunk of tooth just fell out of my mouth and there was a giant gaping hole on one side of the tooth. My root must be dead because I have zero pain from any of this. He wasn't comfortable doing extractions, so he filled it with some cement stuff to close it up temporarily since it didn't seem infected or anything and referred me to an oral surgeon to extract it on Monday morning and then figure out whether to start on the implant or bridge process.

Just gotta eat soft foods on the other side and watch out and make sure there's no infection over the weekend until then.

At least there's no pain yet and this is just annoying. I'm guessing when they pull it it'll be painful, especially since I heal really slow, but I guess they'll give me some painkillers so I'll be in happy mode next week. It's my upper tooth 3 from the back if you include wisdom tooth (I don't have my wisdom tooth, so it's 2nd from back). So it's still a pretty big ass tooth and will be a big ass gap/hole in the back until I do something about it.

Maybe I should get a gold tooth and be pirate arghhh

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« Reply #4649 on: March 01, 2020, 02:52:16 AM »
Well I saw the dentist and it was what I thought, a side of my tooth had collapsed into the hollow inside. He poked it for like 2 seconds and a chunk of tooth just fell out of my mouth and there was a giant gaping hole on one side of the tooth. My root must be dead because I have zero pain from any of this. He wasn't comfortable doing extractions, so he filled it with some cement stuff to close it up temporarily since it didn't seem infected or anything and referred me to an oral surgeon to extract it on Monday morning and then figure out whether to start on the implant or bridge process.

Just gotta eat soft foods on the other side and watch out and make sure there's no infection over the weekend until then.

At least there's no pain yet and this is just annoying. I'm guessing when they pull it it'll be painful, especially since I heal really slow, but I guess they'll give me some painkillers so I'll be in happy mode next week. It's my upper tooth 3 from the back if you include wisdom tooth (I don't have my wisdom tooth, so it's 2nd from back). So it's still a pretty big ass tooth and will be a big ass gap/hole in the back until I do something about it.

Maybe I should get a gold tooth and be pirate arghhh

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« Reply #4650 on: March 02, 2020, 02:50:14 PM »
Welp, oral surgeon was ready to do the extraction surgery, and was really pushing doing a bone craft (idk how to spell it) at the same time to prep for an implant in a few months. But given my immune comp stuff and that the tooth is a little into my sinus cavity which will probably create a hole there that needs to heal too, they want to put me on some strong antibiotics and I have to get the ok from my main GI doc on that. I emailed them on Friday but they haven't responded so I left a voicemail and another email just now. Sitting and waiting for them to get back to me so I can schedule this stuff and do it.

Sounds like it'll be a sore/swollen pain for a few days cause it's a big tooth. They want to give me tramadol for the pain. Never used that but my old ex did. Didn't seem too good, wish they'd just give me some vicodin or something I'm familiar with and know works good.

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« Reply #4651 on: March 02, 2020, 06:51:52 PM »
Starting on antibiotics and doing the extraction & bone graft tomorrow morning. Hope it goes ok and heals fast so I can get back to eating normal.

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« Reply #4652 on: March 02, 2020, 07:01:10 PM »
Pain levels from mouth surgery stuff can vary a lot and seemingly randomly. It seems they usually give you way more pain meds than the average patient would need so good luck and hope you don't get an upset tummy.

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« Reply #4653 on: March 02, 2020, 10:53:59 PM »
Do any of you Borians have tips for dealing with panic attacks? I've experienced more panic attacks the past two months then the rest of my life combined and it sucks. At first they were just waking me up prematurely from sleep, but now I've had them full on in the middle of days. I was just starting to climb out of my massively emotionally fragile depressive funk and it seems like I replaced it with panic attacks.

I bought some lavender spray and a fancy lavender candle. I've called people to talk a few times when it got super bad. I've been doing breathing stuff, writing stuff and also going to the gym more.

I also doubled up my generally low dosage anti anxiety meds (which I'm supposed to take twice a day and had been only doing once a day). It seems like the panic is getting less, but I figured I'd ask if anyone has other advice.
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« Reply #4654 on: March 03, 2020, 11:07:46 AM »
Do any of you Borians have tips for dealing with panic attacks? I've experienced more panic attacks the past two months then the rest of my life combined and it sucks. At first they were just waking me up prematurely from sleep, but now I've had them full on in the middle of days. I was just starting to climb out of my massively emotionally fragile depressive funk and it seems like I replaced it with panic attacks.

I bought some lavender spray and a fancy lavender candle. I've called people to talk a few times when it got super bad. I've been doing breathing stuff, writing stuff and also going to the gym more.

I also doubled up my generally low dosage anti anxiety meds (which I'm supposed to take twice a day and had been only doing once a day). It seems like the panic is getting less, but I figured I'd ask if anyone has other advice.

There's a bunch of decent breathing apps that I really like.

https://www.mindful.org/free-mindfulness-apps-worthy-of-your-attention/

This site is usually pretty good, and these apps do really help!

As for me still going through the which med is for me game and also the so what is fucking wrong game. Generally been okay, I have had a couple nights when I got VERY drunk but generally just trying to stick to social drinking and staying clear of fun drugs which aren't fun atm. Just wish I'd be put onto something or nothing, these come down periods on meds before starting the next actually make me feel worse than anything because of the weird ass side effects. Well it's more oh look you're becoming a feeling person again instead of muted to fuck. Other than that have started going to the gym and running with the dog so that is helping me a lot. I'm not as low or high as I have been but just keeping a fairly rounded pace on things.


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« Reply #4655 on: March 03, 2020, 02:42:53 PM »
ugh, swelling & pain = no fun.

when it says ice pack 15 min intervals, does that mean 15 mins on -> 15 mins off -> repeat?

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« Reply #4656 on: March 03, 2020, 03:33:54 PM »
Ok, drugs are kicking in and bleeding is starting to die down a bit. This is better.


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« Reply #4657 on: March 03, 2020, 03:56:32 PM »
Yeah seems excessive but they said how much I ice it today will determine how swollen it gets this week so might as well do what they say to try to minimize having a swollen face.

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« Reply #4658 on: March 03, 2020, 04:20:41 PM »
Icing for the first day does help a lot with swelling the following few days. I remember just relaying between ice packs for the 15 on/off cycle when I had a jaw surgery.

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« Reply #4659 on: March 03, 2020, 08:29:00 PM »
This tramadol stuff isn't too bad. Sometimes I wish I was a drug addict, seems like it'd be fun to be high on shit all the time. Alchohol is too much of a depressant to be fun like drugs.

But I also feel really fortunate that I don't get addicted to almost anything. Even caffeine I can just drop in a moment's notice and none of the opiate drugs I've taken have ever given me a feeling of needing them when I'm done.

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« Reply #4660 on: March 03, 2020, 08:50:53 PM »
So my soon to be ex quit her fucking job without a backup while we’re still sharing finances without telling me :rage


Just can’t

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« Reply #4661 on: March 03, 2020, 08:55:46 PM »
So my soon to be ex quit her fucking job without a backup while we’re still sharing finances without telling me :rage


Just can’t

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Does she have some savings as a backup?

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« Reply #4662 on: March 03, 2020, 09:00:36 PM »
No. She hasn’t even gotten approved for a place to move out yet. This is most out of control my life has ever felt. Fighting the dark thoughts again.

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« Reply #4663 on: March 03, 2020, 09:19:23 PM »
No. She hasn’t even gotten approved for a place to move out yet. This is most out of control my life has ever felt. Fighting the dark thoughts again.

It'll be ok. Were still in a jobs market, so she should find something if she looks.

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« Reply #4664 on: March 03, 2020, 10:27:48 PM »
Sounds like it’s a good thing she’s your ex. Hang in there, she’ll move on eventually and your days will get brighter again
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« Reply #4665 on: March 04, 2020, 12:18:14 AM »
Do any of you Borians have tips for dealing with panic attacks? I've experienced more panic attacks the past two months then the rest of my life combined and it sucks. At first they were just waking me up prematurely from sleep, but now I've had them full on in the middle of days. I was just starting to climb out of my massively emotionally fragile depressive funk and it seems like I replaced it with panic attacks.

I bought some lavender spray and a fancy lavender candle. I've called people to talk a few times when it got super bad. I've been doing breathing stuff, writing stuff and also going to the gym more.

I also doubled up my generally low dosage anti anxiety meds (which I'm supposed to take twice a day and had been only doing once a day). It seems like the panic is getting less, but I figured I'd ask if anyone has other advice.

There's a bunch of decent breathing apps that I really like.

https://www.mindful.org/free-mindfulness-apps-worthy-of-your-attention/

This site is usually pretty good, and these apps do really help!

As for me still going through the which med is for me game and also the so what is fucking wrong game. Generally been okay, I have had a couple nights when I got VERY drunk but generally just trying to stick to social drinking and staying clear of fun drugs which aren't fun atm. Just wish I'd be put onto something or nothing, these come down periods on meds before starting the next actually make me feel worse than anything because of the weird ass side effects. Well it's more oh look you're becoming a feeling person again instead of muted to fuck. Other than that have started going to the gym and running with the dog so that is helping me a lot. I'm not as low or high as I have been but just keeping a fairly rounded pace on things.

Thanks, I'll check these out.
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #4666 on: March 04, 2020, 05:21:28 AM »
No. She hasn’t even gotten approved for a place to move out yet. This is most out of control my life has ever felt. Fighting the dark thoughts again.

This woman is nuts dude, it's like she's doing everything she can to trap you forever, I would just call the cops and be like this woman will not leave my house, I am a prisoner.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #4667 on: March 04, 2020, 12:59:28 PM »
So last night ended up going really bad and Tramadol sucks.

Got horrible nausea around 11pm and having the extraction site all stitched up and stuff the last thing I wanted to do was to vomit and break open the stitches in the middle of the night and have to deal with it on my own. So spent the entire night trying not to vomit and the nausea just kept getting worse and worse. Didn't sleep at all and just nibbled on salt crackers and sparkling water. Finally the tramadol wore off and the nausea died down a lot. Talked to my doctor when they finally opened and they think it was the tramadol and not the antibiotics (could be either), but they're giving me anti-nausea meds to take if I need them at least from here on out.

Oh well, no more pain meds for me. Just tylenol. Another reason why vicodin is better.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #4668 on: March 04, 2020, 01:17:09 PM »
Damn Bebps, pain meds fuck me up too, sorry you’re having such a hard time getting some relief

I took the day off work to try to arrange my finances to make it on my own, I’ll figure it out, but yeah the sooner we cut financial ties and she’s out of the house the better

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #4669 on: March 04, 2020, 03:05:19 PM »
Came down with something and I don't have time for this shit. 

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« Reply #4670 on: March 04, 2020, 09:46:46 PM »
Got back into the gym and I feel like I've never worked out in my life. Simultaneously feeling heavy and bloated but also small and weak. All the aches and pains that should have healed up or improved after basically 2 weeks of rest are worse than ever.


This is horrible. I feel bad. Is this what actual athletes go through when they come back from injuries or breaks? :stahp

I think so. Exercise kicks your ass when you haven't been doing it for a while, but once you get past the initial hump it gets back to normal pretty quick.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #4671 on: March 05, 2020, 06:46:41 AM »
so good news and bad news

some of you might remember that i mentioned that my left hand has been in pain for about a year and a half. i've seen multiple doctors and they had no idea what may have been wrong with me. but today, after seeing a highly reviewed orthopedis, i finally got my answer.

the bad news? it's much worse than i feared. i was hoping it was just a tricky case of tendonitis, but it turns out i actually have severe arthritis, and the cartilage in my joints have all been destroyed. and cartilage does not grow back, which leaves a very, very tiny, very expensive and very uncertain list of options for me (surgery, basically).

but as shitty as all this is, arguably the most twistedly fucked up thing is that i got my x-rays around the time this started, and so the problem was right there, it's just that EVERYONE who read the x-ray up until now, missed everything. meaning that, in these past 18 months, any remaining cartilage i would have had probably got destroyed due to a combination of continual deterioration, and multiple cortisone shots that i got cause the idiot doctors gave me the wrong diagosis.

i'm only 35 years old. this shouldn't be happening to me :fbm

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« Reply #4672 on: March 05, 2020, 08:59:38 AM »
I’m sorry that must suck so bad. I use my left hand all the time and it isn’t even my dominant hand. Could it be worth consulting with a lawyer? That sounds like malpractice to me since they were making it worse. But I’m not a lawyer or anything
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« Reply #4673 on: March 05, 2020, 03:59:59 PM »
Sorry dude.


I had 2 uncles diagnosed with cancer around Xmas.  One - who is just a few years older than my mom, and has kids in their early 20s - probably won't be getting out of the hospital. 

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« Reply #4674 on: March 05, 2020, 09:51:56 PM »
That's awful Madrun  :(
Spend time with them while you can if you're close.

so good news and bad news

some of you might remember that i mentioned that my left hand has been in pain for about a year and a half. i've seen multiple doctors and they had no idea what may have been wrong with me. but today, after seeing a highly reviewed orthopedis, i finally got my answer.

the bad news? it's much worse than i feared. i was hoping it was just a tricky case of tendonitis, but it turns out i actually have severe arthritis, and the cartilage in my joints have all been destroyed. and cartilage does not grow back, which leaves a very, very tiny, very expensive and very uncertain list of options for me (surgery, basically).

but as shitty as all this is, arguably the most twistedly fucked up thing is that i got my x-rays around the time this started, and so the problem was right there, it's just that EVERYONE who read the x-ray up until now, missed everything. meaning that, in these past 18 months, any remaining cartilage i would have had probably got destroyed due to a combination of continual deterioration, and multiple cortisone shots that i got cause the idiot doctors gave me the wrong diagosis.

i'm only 35 years old. this shouldn't be happening to me :fbm

You know, the bright side is that they know what it is and from my experience, hand surgeries are pretty successful even some of the complex ones can take a couple surgeries, so there might be light at the end of the tunnel.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #4675 on: March 06, 2020, 12:50:22 AM »
thanks guys.


and sorry to hear about your uncles Madrun. :( it's cause of more severe situations like that, i try not to wallow in too much self-pity, even though i do feel my problem is pretty bad on its own.

I’m sorry that must suck so bad. I use my left hand all the time and it isn’t even my dominant hand. Could it be worth consulting with a lawyer? That sounds like malpractice to me since they were making it worse. But I’m not a lawyer or anything

i'm not sure, exactly. one of the guys who gave me a cortisone shot did so without checking x-rays because he thought it was a tendonitis issue. the second guy who did it gave me a shot because the radiologists who did the x-rays and mri said that it was normal and i guess he took their word for it. i'm not sure how this would work in terms of culpability if i did decide to sue them. it is also quite possible that my cartilage was already destroyed when the first x-ray was done so there wouldn't be any additional cartilage for the cortisone to further damage.

That's awful Madrun  :(
Spend time with them while you can if you're close.

so good news and bad news

some of you might remember that i mentioned that my left hand has been in pain for about a year and a half. i've seen multiple doctors and they had no idea what may have been wrong with me. but today, after seeing a highly reviewed orthopedis, i finally got my answer.

the bad news? it's much worse than i feared. i was hoping it was just a tricky case of tendonitis, but it turns out i actually have severe arthritis, and the cartilage in my joints have all been destroyed. and cartilage does not grow back, which leaves a very, very tiny, very expensive and very uncertain list of options for me (surgery, basically).

but as shitty as all this is, arguably the most twistedly fucked up thing is that i got my x-rays around the time this started, and so the problem was right there, it's just that EVERYONE who read the x-ray up until now, missed everything. meaning that, in these past 18 months, any remaining cartilage i would have had probably got destroyed due to a combination of continual deterioration, and multiple cortisone shots that i got cause the idiot doctors gave me the wrong diagosis.

i'm only 35 years old. this shouldn't be happening to me :fbm

You know, the bright side is that they know what it is and from my experience, hand surgeries are pretty successful even some of the complex ones can take a couple surgeries, so there might be light at the end of the tunnel.

yeah, i did a bit of research and it seems like worst case scenario, if i do have to resort to surgery, they seem to have really good prognosis nowadays.

but i have additional worries in that what i currently have may not be the worst of it. i've been feeling similar problems in my right hand as well, but not to the same degree (if the injured hand is a 10 on the pain scale, the other hand would be around a 3-4). i'm scared that some day that other hand is going to give the same problem my currently damaged one does.

not to mention that while the doc was examining me, he thinks that my wrists may also contain bone spurs as well  :'(


yet all that being said, i think i'm in much better spirits than i was yesterday.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #4676 on: March 06, 2020, 01:07:47 AM »
Sorry Oblivion, you'll get over the financial hit and the anxiety wears off immediately after the surgery at least.

To be honest though, you should have expected this after all those years of grabbing huge titties.

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« Reply #4677 on: March 06, 2020, 01:57:19 AM »

To be honest though, you should have expected this after all those years of grabbing huge titties.

they were supposed to make the joints stronger!

STRONGER!

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« Reply #4678 on: March 06, 2020, 02:13:32 AM »
Good luck fighting it, Oblivion. Chronic pain really sucks. It makes me meaner and more short tempered and then I feel like a jerk because I know I’m not that kind of person when the pain isn’t there, but it’s pretty much always there now. I guess that’s me now, but I don’t want it to be.
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #4679 on: March 06, 2020, 10:23:10 PM »
I haven’t slept in four days. It would be easy to blame it on the new baby, but that’s not it. It‘s well past 4 AM and I am wide awake. I don’t have any work related stress either, everything is fine, but I just can’t sleep more than an hour or so.