why the fuck is seemingly everyone on this forum depressed
1) No money
2) No job prospects
Etc.
It's typical millennial (which most of this board is, with a few older farts that are GenX).
Since I've posted about it here in the past: I've gone off meds despite being prescribed them. I've been off them for a month or two now and... I don't feel any better or worse. In fact, my depression has been more or less the same, as it was before I started the two-year attempt on meds. The only "benefit" now is that I can actually fucking cry and feel something when the depression hits instead of it damming up until a crack in said dam happens and I start to cry.
I'd rather get these random bursts into crying than the prolongness, tbh.
And in any case: I do have a possible job offer, but given it's been two weeks since the interview, and they said they were still interviewing I'm going to be REALLY FUCKING ANGRY and sad if I get passed over on this since this job is something I've been looking for and really want.
In any case, my vacation is over tonight, so I should get to bed and then go to work tomorrow. Thing is: I hate my boss, like HATE. She micromanages EVERYTHING and gets on my case, and then turns around and does bullshit that she claims I shouldn't do (talks to coworkers when nobody is in the location, for instance) and it drives me up the fucking wall. Which is part of the reason I've been looking elsewhere.
But being discriminated against for absolutely no reason than asking for accommodations is infuriating and really demoralizing and it's basically caused me to waste a year on not actually looking elsewhere. Which is part of the reason why I'm holding out hope for this offer.
As it is, I can reach out to folks I used to talk to and then they never reply back. Which is... fucking awful. I can be there 24/7 for people, but none of these sumbitches are there when I need them to be.